Dude, your not stupid, you just have a serious ilness, your sick man, & the only remedy that will make you fell better is buying more trucks, there's alot of guys like you here, some alot sicker then you, they trucks in the front yard, the back yard, some have flowers growing out of them, some have so many trucks they had to build a fence to hide the trucks behind to keep the city from giving them fines.
You'll be okay, don't be so hard on yourself